The feeling of insecurity is one that many of us can relate to. It creeps up on us when we are least expecting it. This can happen at the most random places, when we are with or without others. I used to feel insecure frequently in my younger days. I had a hard time overcoming it.
My journey of self acceptance and self love has been a long one and with this journey, I’ve started becoming more secure and confident about myself. I used to feel so insecure about the things I didn’t have, and the things I haven’t accomplished yet. I used to be so insecure because I used to compete with others and was always living for others, instead of myself. I used to feel insecure especially when I was in the company of those my age, who have “accomplished” many more things than I did. I used to feel I needed to do the same things others were doing in order to be successful. I always thought success was sitting in a cubicle and working that 9-5 shift. I always thought that success was doing happy hours with friends after a long work day to wind down from work, I always thought that success was taking yearly vacations, just because I can, and showing them off on instagram. I always thought success was doing things most people around my age were doing. I didn’t learn how to stand on my own and be completely okay with myself and the things I was accomplishing until recently. The thing that also amazes me is how much credit many of us give to the things we have actually accomplished.
I guess it is a part of growing up learning how to be secure with oneself. I am still learning how to do that. I think most of us young adults are still learning how to do that. We are in that age, where we are not too young or we are not too old. We are still living our lives trying to see which type of living makes sense. I think it is safe to say that we are testing the waters trying to establish the life that we want for our future. We are still in that enjoying our freedom phase because we are adults, but still insecure about some aspects of our lives because we are not there yet. I’ve learned that it’s okay not to be there yet, despite of some being there already. I’ve learned it’s okay to be 26 and still figure out what the heck I want from this life. It’s okay to be 26 and not know what makes sense. It’s okay to be 26 and be insecure about certain aspects of my life because I thought I would have been living in some kind of riches by the time I reached 26 when I was 18 or 19.
I’ve learned that it’s okay not to be okay. It’s okay to cry when you need to, ask for advice from friends/family, be confused about what you want from life, still trying to figure it out, learning how to be secure and giving your life its own meaning. I’ve been learning and my biggest goal for this year is to be so secure about my journey and my life, nothing can shake me or the ground I stand on. I also want to be brutally honest with myself about the things I want from this life and the life I have lived so far. I am learning how to be honest about my journey with others. I’m learning to be honest in all aspects of my life. I know honesty will set me free and there is nothing I want in this world than to be brutally honest about the different aspects of my life. I hope you also have a personal goal you want to achieve for this year. Here is to living fulfilling and happy lives.
Peace and Love,